23 November, 2008
So my last exam of my undergraduate life ended ten days ago. Don't really want to know how well I did. I'm just hoping to scrape through to attend my graduation ceremony and not waste anybody's time and money to fly over for nothing. That said, I haven't paid for the rental of my Regalia. Yes, graduation ceremonies aren't free even though school fees cost a bomb.
The PSLE results came out last Thursday and you must be wondering why I even bother taking notice of it. Well, firstly, I'm dead bored. Secondly, the sweetheart's brother was part of it. Thirdly, I was trying to recall that fateful day of my 12 year old life which I clearly remember.
I know my parents weren't pinning high hopes on me, and neither was I. They didn't even bother to be part all the other anxious parents waiting at the back of the school hall to see if their daughter had done well. But thankfully they didn't waste their time coming. All I was hoping for was to be able to scrape through the 236 (I even remember the cut off point!) mark to get back into the school's secondary section. In the end, I was still three marks away. I remember Hy's mother anxiously trying to ask our form teacher if I could get in. Haha. Hy on the other hand did superbly well. I wasn't happy and neither was I disappointed, I was just looking forward to going to Hy's house after that to do stupid things that 12 year olds do. I wonder what would life be like if I didn't get back to St Nicks, really.
While reading articles online, another thought sparked off. Which school will I send my child to in the future? Will I be one of those kiasu parents who wants the best for her child? As I scrolled down the list of schools that this year's top performers were from, I was rather disappointed that my alma mater wasn't on that list. Maybe they were one of the best a decade ago, but how about now? Will that all change in the future? Even though the government has placed less emphasis on ranking the schools academically, I believe a good school and a bad school does make a difference to one's study environment. So yes, I think I'd be one of those kiasu parents balloting like crazy to get my child in the best schools. Haha. Am I thinking too far?
From now till 12th of December will probably feel similar to waiting for my PSLE results and O level results except that this time will determine if I'm a graduate. And no, I don't think I can laugh and play like a 12 year old kid if something goes wrong. Well in the mean time, I shall just countdown to the day I leave for Sydney. Ten whole days with my love, a lovely distraction from life's complexities.
[edit]: Oh yes, my blog layout. Hahaha. I need to work something out but not when I have very limited internet. Sigh.
01 November, 2008
每个人的一生就像一部电影
而他们就是那部电影里的主角
有时候他们会以为自己
也是别人电影里的主角
但是可能他们只是一个配角
只有一个镜头
更说不定他们的片段早被人剪断了
自己居然还不知道
就拿这对母女来说吧
这女孩肯定是妈妈一辈子的主角
可是十几年后
在女孩的电影里面
妈妈的角色还有多重要呢
在我这儿储存了很多
被别人减掉的片段
我把它们都收起来了
因为有时候他们会剪错的
等他们再需要的时候
我就会把片段送还给他们
我是不是你电影里永远的女主角呢？
23 October, 2008
I think I know my post-exam schedule better than I know my schedule for the next three weeks.
Oh em gee, three weeks. I need more time.
I'm definitely looking forward to post-exams! Sydney to visit the sweetheart, then the father and sister are coming down, then graduation, then SINK-AH-PORR (: Can't wait!
But first, honours thesis proposal, two essays, one feature story and an exam. Sigh, sure doesn't look exciting.
I miss my sweetheart :( It's going to be lots of coffee, late nights, typing and cramming till I get to see him.
20 October, 2008
Bah, even with the new computer labs down at the other end of uni, it's so difficult just to find an available computer to use. I think the Monash Road computer labs were a better idea. wishing under the stars at 13:21
missing you
16 October, 2008
So graduation is on the 18th of December at 1430 and I just typed out the essay question for my first essay. That's a start, I think. wishing under the stars at 17:54
missing you
09 October, 2008
Many thanks to everyone who made Tuesday a splendid day for me (:
To my sweetheart for wishing me so many times throughout the day and of course, being the first person to wish me at the stroke of midnight. Je t'aime;
To the family - daddy, ma, gris, stzy, manang, enlai and enwei - for their calls, SMSes, Wall messages and some weird powerpoint thing;
To 5torm - Yingwan, Weiqi, Meow and Qian - for the MSN wishes and to Yingwan for her super useful present;
To the crazy girls - Yun, Barb and Lyn - for the SMSes and hugs and to Yun for the nice-smelling presents;
To the Economics nerds - AP, Nish, Wena and Aug - for the wonderful lunch and making me fat with loads of cake;
To the rest of the people who wished me in person, SMSed, MSNed or Facebooked me - Agnes, Sher Lyn, Alicia, Hanyou, Nicky, Jean, Pasqualina, Cecily, Rovina, Shuwen, Adeline, Siumin, Lingyi, Amelia, Wendy, Alison, Jeff, Wen Loong, Phui Whye...I hope I don't miss out anyone (:
THANK YOU!
06 October, 2008
Daddy: Girl, when's your graduation date?
Me: I don't know yet. My friends said should be out by next week.
Daddy: Ok.
Me: So are you going to book tickets soon?
Daddy: No, wait for the date first.
Me: Why don't you all just come from 13th to 18th? (By the way, I've said this to him ten thousand times already because it will DEFINITELY be from 13th to 18th December).
Daddy: What if your graduation is on the 19th then how?!
Me:... -.-|||
06 October, 2008
I decided to be adventurous today and bought a cup of Soy Latte, and I totally regretted it. The taste of the soy milk was too overwhelming, and it felt like drinking spoilt soya bean milk. Maybe it was the person who made the coffee, maybe it was just me. But I told my sweetheart that when I came back and he agrees! Anyhoo, no more Soy Lattes for me, I'll just stick to the usual.
Finally one interesting journalism lecture after eight whole weeks of semester. Woohoo! He was a guest lecturer who came in to speak about travel writing and I was actually paying attention every single minute, or so I remembered. I'm glad I dragged myself to school for this. Well, it was raining and gloomy when I woke up but before I left the apartment, the rain stopped and the sun started to shine again. It was a sign! Haha. I believe that guy was an inspiration to many people sitting in the lecture theatre just now, as a few of them were trying to catch him after the lecture. He made travel writing sound so fun and easy, but no, I don't think I will want to venture that way. My lecturer in first year encouraged me to do creative non-fiction, but it somehow sounded too intimidating for me, especially when you have brillant writers in the same tutorial. Not my cup of tea.
Sigh, I'm only partially looking forward to tomorrow. It's going to be a long day ahead and my presentation is going to be just as boring as everyone else's.
你的心情總在飛 04 October, 2008
什么事都想去追
想抓住一些安慰
你總是喜歡在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤單的滋味
你的心那么脆
一碰就會碎
經不起一點風吹
你的身邊總是要許多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天總會黑
人總要离別
誰也不能永遠陪誰
而孤單的滋味
誰都要面對
不只是你我會感覺到疲憊
當你孤單你會想起誰
你想不想找個人來陪
你的快樂傷悲
只有我能体會
讓我再陪你走一回 wishing under the stars at 21:51
missing you04 October, 2008
I remember when I was nine, I didn't want to turn ten because the number ten had two digits. When I was twelve I didn't want to turn thirteen because being a "teen" sounds scary. Now I'm nineteen and I'm not looking forward to the big two-oh. Well, the two-one in my opinion, sounds even worse. Haha.
Anyhoo, my sweetheart was here for a measly five days and I'm missing him already. Sigh.
26 September, 2008
Buying hair wax for a guy is like asking a guy to buy sanitary pads. wishing under the stars at 16:08
missing you
23 September, 2008
I have been so lazy to the extent that I can't be bothered to wake up from my twelve hour sleep to attempt to finish my pile of work. And when I finally drag myself out of bed, all I do is eat, snack, eat, snack, you get what I mean. That is even when I'm not hungry. Even though I don't gain much weight, the food's got to go somewhere, and that's when they store as FATS. It doesn't help that I hate to exercise. Sigh.
Sometimes I feel like slapping myself awake, and punching my mouth everytime I snack. But when I think that there's four more weeks left before uni life is over, I forgive myself for the prolonged hours of sleeping and eating. Oh, what an excuse. Yea, but it's true. When ever can you have so much free time except in uni? Even taking two weeks leave from work in the future would mean using up all my leave for a year! I used to miss the Children's Day holiday, and then it was Youth Day. Is there an Adults Day, anyone?
Somehow I think a part of me subconsciously wants to go back in time even though the only thing I'm thinking about is to graduate. There were countless of times when I've dreamt that I was still in secondary school, going through A Maths or Chinese lesson. Then there were the dreams about 1st 3 months in JC. The friends, the freezing LTs, the crazy teachers and a whole new different experience. It has been more than four years, maybe its something that still feels incomplete. Oh well, I can't turn back time, probably only in my dreams. And maybe if things had taken a different route, I wouldn't have been together with my love. Sometimes it doesn't help thinking too much about the past when it's the present that we should treasure and the future we're going to create.
I just received a letter about the confirmation of my attendance for the graduation ceremony in December. I'm excited. Never thought that the day will come so soon.
15 September, 2008
"Wild winds on way for Melbourne", that's the headline for this morning's Age. "A severe weather warning has been issued with a second cold front predicted to slam into the city later today, bringing the threat of thunderstorms, hail and very strong winds."
Oh, it's raining now. Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't go to school. I might be hit by a fallen tree on the way, you see. It's not worth losing my life over a journalism lecture. Haha.
14 September, 2008
You knew it was a matter of life and death, but you still took the risk to tell me the secret that I wasn't supposed to know.
Even though it was something that you didn't want to do, I know you'll always make me proud, no matter what (:
[edit]: 中秋节快乐! Happy Mooncake Festival! I want my bing pi (snowskin) mooncakes *wails* and I want to play sparklers in the playground.
13 September, 2008
Blue Mountains and Sydney was nothing but splendid. Those five days were short, but it meant that every second was treasured. I saw the Opera House and Darling Habour from the plane, looking like cardboard models found in an architect’s workspace. The heart of the city was dotted with Lego-sized cars and trains chugging lazily on the railway track. It seemed as if I was in a child’s fantasy land, but everything was real.
The two and a half hour train ride. That’s like traveling from Boon Lay to Changi Airport and back again. Half of me doubted that I was on the right train, while the other half told me to just sit back, relax and enjoy. Soon houses became farmland, farmland became rock walls and rock walls became huge acres of forests. That was how far from Sydney the train went. The funny thing was that the trains there do not tell you what the next stop is and so I had to crane my neck to look out of the window everytime to make sure I knew when to get out.
Leura was where I stopped – small town, a pretty stationary shop, other pretty shops, and a few eateries. Caught a cab and headed for the hotel and there waiting for me was my boy dressed his kitchen uniform. It had been such a long while since I fell into his arms and nothing stopped me even though he smelt like fried food and oil. Hash browns, he told me later, that he was frying before I came.
The next few days went by in a flash. We went to Cynic World and sat on the world’s steepest railway, experienced breath-taking views of the mountains, and loads of trees and trees, and did I say trees? The Chocolate Factory had magnificent chocolate ice-cream that doesn’t leave a sweet aftertaste, definitely worth the long walk. Sydney was a city! The new (or maybe not so new) Apple Store had so many Apple products that I was dying to touch. On a side note, I want an iPhone *coughcough*. Food there was more expensive than Melbourne though, and the rain made the journey rather splishy-sploshy. But it was fun ducking for shelter and having a free bath on the streets of Sydney since four of us only had one umbrella to share. Oh yes, and not forgetting the school party which I downed weird mixtures of alcohol.
The school was cool, made new friends, and ate (yummy) school food. Everybody knew everybody and my boy often had loads of gossip sessions with his close friends. Sounds so secondary school, yea, I do miss secondary school. Everybody looks good in their school uniform, shirt, tie, blazer and all. I’m proud that my boy doesn’t wear his old-school Converse sneakers anymore.
We parted at the train station on the last morning. Everything felt like it was all just a dream. I boarded the train and ran towards the window directly in front of where he was standing on the platform. We sent flying kisses through the window before the train moved off. I saw him trying to catch up, but after three seconds, I could see him no more. Again, I was alone for another two and a half hours – hoping time would fast forward, so that I can see my boy again.
Happy 32nd month darling. And I’m loving you more than ever.
11 August, 2008
Dawn feels like Hello Kitty - The cat girl with no mouth. wishing under the stars at 21:01
missing you
11 August, 2008
I thought I'd never do this, but I'm bored. Or maybe it's just an excuse not to do my work. So here goes:
1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
I don’t have a LJ. Had thoughts of getting one but nah, I’m too lazy, as usual. I shall just stick to diaryland for now. But my initial reasons for having a blog is to rant and also partly because everyone had a blog in Sec 3. I don’t update so often now. Somehow the older I get, the more I’m finding it difficult putting my thoughts down in words. Sigh, so much for wanting to do a journalism course. I’ll fail terribly for sure. (I realized that my sentences are really choppy for some reason. My mind is trying to tell me to write in short sentences after spending a day on my news story.)
2. What do you do before bedtime?
Talk on the phone with my sweetheart and think of him. (Cheesy as it sounds, but even if I don’t want to think about him, he somehow finds his way into my thoughts. Haha.) If not, it’ll be talking to my sister about weird stuff. Oh yes, and try to sleep. I spend a long, long time just falling asleep.
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
A beach thing in the sunset. Just family and close friends will do.
4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Hmm, I have no idea. I guess I would say any city which allows me to live comfortably in a nice apartment/house. I’m very easy to please, huh? Oh, and it must be close to the city center. I hate being ten thousand hours away from the city.
5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert with strangers but extrovert with people that I know really well? Depends on the situation, lah.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Hmm, I would say being loved (: It’s not that loving someone is not good, but there isn’t always someone that loves you. But since there is someone who loves me, I want to be loved. Hahaha. But if the question is "would you rather love someone or be loved by someone", I’ll pick I "would rather love someone". Okay, I don’t know if there was a difference to you, but there was definitely a difference to me. Haha.
7. Do you trust easily?
Most of the time, yes. I’m trying to learn to only trust at the right times.
8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
Have no role models for now. Just taking things a step at a time, hoping to fulfill what I intended to achieve.
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yeah, don’t wish to elaborate. But I know I’m happy now when I’m typing this (:
10. When's the last time you had fun?
I have fun everyday! Haha. Simply using MSN is fun. Sigh, I’m so easy to please, right?
11. Is being tagged fun?
Some sort. At least it gives my blog some life.
12. How do you see yourself?
A girl with two eyes (maybe four with glasses), two ears, one nose and a mouth. Haha. I’m just a plain ordinary girl who wishes to live in fantasy but knows she can’t.
13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
You should know who you are.
14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Fun, loving, and someone who you can count on! Of course the list is never ending, but you know what I mean (:
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
If there’s someone to love me (which there is) then I’d rather be married but poor. Money can’t buy everything, yea? But of course, the best is married and rich *hint hint* I know you’re reading this. Haha.
16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
Two! Two is just nice I guess. Three would be a bit out of hand. One is just not enough. Hahaha.
17. What's better, to give or to receive?
To give. Cos when you give, you will receive eventually. Unless people are that inhumane now?
18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None. Cos I won’t fall in love with two people simultaneously! Haha. One is enough. But it’ll always be the one that loves me for who I am.
19. Would you like to live alone?
I don’t mind as long as people come visit me (: Not any ordinary person from the street la, duh.
20. What are you waiting for right now?
For my sweetheart to spend some time with me. He’s wayyyy too busy :(
09 August, 2008
Oh what a National Day. I wonder what is more important to you. wishing under the stars at 19:05
missing you
*dawn*
*7th October*
*Singapore*
*sngs*
*dance*
*1faith01'*
*2faith02'*
*3diligence03'*
*4diligence04'*
*cjc*
*councilIntern*
*choir*
*1t14*
*trinitycollege*
*aprilaccelerated*
*february(main)*
*theuniversityofmelbourne*
*commerce/mediaandcommunications*
*firstsecondthirdyear*
*flaredanceensemble*
*rmitv*
*singaporestudents'society*